duke @duke@g0v.social

https://m.imgur.com/gallery/BoOhc5u

真心想哭, 每一個最後一週才拒絕我的人都令我覺得很痛. 理性不想去怪他們, 但感性覺得這些人令我很為難, 為何不早點說?

一生人都沒有多少對這些人有所求, 也不覺得他們拒絕我是多麼不對的事情. 但最起碼早點說, 晚說你們也覺得良心過意不去, 到底這對誰好?

說實話, 我真想發狂, 想開口去罵人...

還未到絕望，但絕望一詞在我的人生中第一次正式被我思考了。

我的痛苦不是我獨有，但卻不代表我不痛苦。
人們有能解決他們的困難，但不代表我也有能解決。
我覺得很痛苦，解決不了要面對的困難。

In the world that's full of conflict, especially those that I care, my days go by very painfully. I almost can't smile or laugh from heart any longer than 2 seconds because the sadness and the tiredness overshadow my positive feeling quickly.

I bought a ring with @Glamira_Diamond@twitter.com and it has obvious flaw so I sent back for repair. They had been slacking on processing my request. It's been 2 weeks+. This morning they don't even bothered to reply me email. Everyone please be careful with them!

I really can't handle conflict. Any conflicts or confrontations make me tired quickly, either they are directly or indirectly imposed to me.

思緒太亂

沒有人發現我不開心, 太好了😧

Recently I put too much disclaimers before each sentence just to make sure my intention is communicated across. I just want normal conversions.

If someone don't respond to you the first time, maybe they are busy.

If someone don't respond to you the second time, maybe they are stupid.

If someone don't respond to you the third time, maybe they just hate you.

If someone don't respond to you the forth time, then YOU are stupid.

「每個人都是罪人 」— 聖⋯港版國安法

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從頭說起太難，簡單來說就是為了食物的意見經常與母親吵，也快忘已經多少年了。今天又是，最後還說不用她來煮，我自己解決。我錯了嗎？

論中國人的他者仆X主義（theotherpkism)，20200627 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjHRDIB-jYE&feature=share